Another outdated post
Jun. 8th, 2015 08:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
aidenonymousI failed to actually post this last week when I should have, but here it is anyway.
I got my sixth T shot today. I watched as the needle went in again, and I noticed that I move around more when I'm watching, which makes it hurt and bleed, so I'm going to try to learn to do it without looking at all. I had pretty bad anxiety the whole day though (bad enough that I got misgendered on the phone, which never happens anymore), and I slept through all of yesterday. I seem to have trouble staying conscious 6-7 days after each shot, and I get anxiety during the day after my shot. When I'm doing it on my own, after top surgery, I think I'll try out an even shorter injection cycle to see if I can avoid the low energy slump, and I'll do the shots in the evening so I can sleep through the anxiety I get when my levels are low and I'm awake. Random: my injection site has also been itching all afternoon. I hope it doesn't mean I'm allergic to the oil, because I have a big honkin' vial of the stuff I'd hate to waste.
In T-related news, I got another period while I was at the Trans Health Conference, and it was surprisingly not bad at all. I'm wondering if maybe injections are doing what a higher dose never did, because this one was short and light and all-around not a pain in the ass. It'd be really nice if it were the last one ever because the next predicted one coincides with my top surgery in a little over three weeks. Speaking of top surgery, I'm seriously freaking out.
So my top surgery is in a little over three weeks now, and I'm still freaking out. I thought I'd feel better after the Trans Health Conference, but it didn't make any difference. I'm still flip-flopping on a daily basis. I'll have to mail my paperwork via Priority Mail so they get my payment by Wednesday's deadline. And I still haven't told my mom yet. . . I'm just not sure how. I also have to book a hotel and am stressed out about the cost. My insurance now claims they never said they pitch in for travel expenses for SRS, and I don't have the energy to fight them on it.
I got my sixth T shot today. I watched as the needle went in again, and I noticed that I move around more when I'm watching, which makes it hurt and bleed, so I'm going to try to learn to do it without looking at all. I had pretty bad anxiety the whole day though (bad enough that I got misgendered on the phone, which never happens anymore), and I slept through all of yesterday. I seem to have trouble staying conscious 6-7 days after each shot, and I get anxiety during the day after my shot. When I'm doing it on my own, after top surgery, I think I'll try out an even shorter injection cycle to see if I can avoid the low energy slump, and I'll do the shots in the evening so I can sleep through the anxiety I get when my levels are low and I'm awake. Random: my injection site has also been itching all afternoon. I hope it doesn't mean I'm allergic to the oil, because I have a big honkin' vial of the stuff I'd hate to waste.
In T-related news, I got another period while I was at the Trans Health Conference, and it was surprisingly not bad at all. I'm wondering if maybe injections are doing what a higher dose never did, because this one was short and light and all-around not a pain in the ass. It'd be really nice if it were the last one ever because the next predicted one coincides with my top surgery in a little over three weeks. Speaking of top surgery, I'm seriously freaking out.
So my top surgery is in a little over three weeks now, and I'm still freaking out. I thought I'd feel better after the Trans Health Conference, but it didn't make any difference. I'm still flip-flopping on a daily basis. I'll have to mail my paperwork via Priority Mail so they get my payment by Wednesday's deadline. And I still haven't told my mom yet. . . I'm just not sure how. I also have to book a hotel and am stressed out about the cost. My insurance now claims they never said they pitch in for travel expenses for SRS, and I don't have the energy to fight them on it.
