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aidenonymousI was off T a grand total of about ten weeks before I saw a super-competent trans activist NP and went back on ultra-low dose gel teamed up with raloxifene, an E blocker, on 21 September. It's only been a couple weeks, and I haven't noticed any changes or side-effects, not even the mania I got every time I started or re-started T, possibly because my other meds have changed up a bit, too.
Okay, that's not quite true; there was the one day when I forgot my T but remembered the E blocker, and I had what I think might have been a minor hot flash. I was out in the cold wearing a hoody and windbreaker, and suddenly I had to unzip the windbreaker and wished I could unzip the pullover hoody. By the time I got home fifteen minutes later I felt fine, but that's my best guess at what happened. I will definitely try to be more careful about remembering my T now that it's an every day thing again. Once I get stable with it I'm going to investigate other delivery methods so I can maybe be lazy with memory again.
I'm finding it hard to get back into the routine of being on gel again. I apply it in the morning but have been showering around dinnertime/when I get home from work so I can sleep without clothes without exposing my partner to it. My hair has been derp-tastic at work because of this, but I just can't talk myself into showering twice a day. I've been having really bad dysphoria since I made my last medical transition update post and can't shower unless I turn the lights off and play really loud, complicated/engaging music. Showering is definitely the low point of my day.
Speaking of medical transition updates, there will be no more top surgery updates. Dear posterity, I apologize, but I just can't.
Okay, that's not quite true; there was the one day when I forgot my T but remembered the E blocker, and I had what I think might have been a minor hot flash. I was out in the cold wearing a hoody and windbreaker, and suddenly I had to unzip the windbreaker and wished I could unzip the pullover hoody. By the time I got home fifteen minutes later I felt fine, but that's my best guess at what happened. I will definitely try to be more careful about remembering my T now that it's an every day thing again. Once I get stable with it I'm going to investigate other delivery methods so I can maybe be lazy with memory again.
I'm finding it hard to get back into the routine of being on gel again. I apply it in the morning but have been showering around dinnertime/when I get home from work so I can sleep without clothes without exposing my partner to it. My hair has been derp-tastic at work because of this, but I just can't talk myself into showering twice a day. I've been having really bad dysphoria since I made my last medical transition update post and can't shower unless I turn the lights off and play really loud, complicated/engaging music. Showering is definitely the low point of my day.
Speaking of medical transition updates, there will be no more top surgery updates. Dear posterity, I apologize, but I just can't.
